@ 1:44 AM
WHAT A DAY:
I guess you could say that yesterday was probably the worst day of work I have ever had. I never thought Tinseltown was a bad place to work, nor did I think bad about most of the managers, until yesterday. I mean, what the fuck are they thinking!? It was 2 degrees out side and inside the main lobby of T-town... where I am stationed to work. Why did I have to take off my long sleaved shirt? So f-ing rediculous.
Not only were the managers bad, but Kayde. I swear- that kid is so fucking dumb. I for one was already pissed that I had to take off my nice and warm long sleaved shirt- which even though I was mildly warm, it was STILL cold. He decides to put ice down my shirt and rub it in so that my back is soaking wet. So I'm standing there- already cold, no long sleaves, and a wet back. The day couldn't get any worse! Oh but it did. Ice comes up to me and says "Oh, no apron, hat, and you have long sleaves on... three strikes and you're out." If I would of had my car friday, I swore I would of just drove away. They literaly threw me over the edge which is REALLY hard to do. I'm never really mad at anything but my parents- but my managers yesterday *gggggggggggrrrrr*
Not only that, but Ryan comes over at around 11:00 and my dad says "He can only stay till 11:30" I, of course give him that look. That would mean only 30 minutes, which is unfar and plus me having a bad day didn't help. So he stayed until 12:00 and I got in trouble for it.
At 10:30 I had to get up for work, yet agian it wasn't pleasent. I for one didn't want to even wake up- so I was pretty cranky. Not to meantion I was mean to just about every customer. As the day whent on, I was still agrovated and had a whole lot on my mind- but the day sort of ended well. After having tantroms and wanting to complain, Trudway asked if I wanted to move out into box to work. So I might try that and see how it goes- that might determine wheather I quit or not, and Ry's decision.
After the long evening- I head to church and then sit in my car for a few hours. So then Ryan comes over and we pretty much do nothing- as usual. And for the first time, I cried in front of him. I couldn't hide it....
Mood:
- Dizzy
@ 7:23 PM
WESTERN and SNOW:
Today was just like any normal day. I whent to school, and actually attended all my classes this time. My stomach ached threw out the day due to eating cream cheese and mayo.
I ended up going to Finks office after 4th block to talk to him about my art class. I told him I needed to drop out of Specialized Art II because it was stressing me out and I had no creative ideas for it. Some how, that wasn't the issue. We started to talk about colleges and how I was affraid and had no cofidence and now, tomorrow, I have to give him a filled out application to Western (woopy). The funny thing is, he made me realize what a big baby I was and how afraid I was about college. My cofidence is easily broken and my emotions easily shown. I cryed, and felt like a moron- I don't like to cry in front of... anyone at all, especially my guidence councilor.
The news is calling for a few inches today and tomorrow. I was going to go to Ry's house but obviously, since it's hardly snowing- I can't. He couldn't come over either- so once agian I'm stuck at my house.. with nothing to do. No time on the weekend to hang out either... I work all weekend. Tomorrow 4:30-10:30, not even time to come home from school and change!!! How rediculous.
Off to take a bath. Chow-
Mood:
- Not Tired
- I have to much ENERGYYYYY!
@ 11:50 PM
SICK and SICKER (part 2):
You know whats great? When you know someone cares about you, and they come and see you constantly, even though they know they might get sick- or irritate your parents (even though they don't and never do). That is what I call someone who cares. And lately, I've seen so much love from you, I truely feel like I can call it that now. But who knows... you said "whos to say what love is?" so I wouldn't know...
@ 10:00 PM
SICK and SICKER:
I was extremely sick last night. I was throwing up constantly and maybe got an hour of sleep. I had earlier that day gone to steak n' shake and got the same things I had eatin' last time. And then whent to see the butterfly effect. The movie was excelent other than the fact that it was just... sad. A lot of gore and suicide which put my mood off. I ended up throwing up in T-towns bathroom after the movie. My stomach was acting really weird. Then Ryan drove us back to my house and we sat on the coutch and watched TV. He then had to go home and I whent and got a bath and whent straight to bed. Being in bed by 10:30 wasn't something I normally did. So I hopped in bed, and talked to Ry on the phone. I woke up constantly threw the night throwing up and getting water. I tossed and turned, not sleeping one minute. That was the worst part. Lack of eating and sleeping.
Anywho, I ended up not going to school in the morning, until Sara (my broadcast journalism partner) called my house and asked if I could come in maybe after school. I decided to come in near the end of 2nd block. I felt really bad the whole time I was there- but our class really needed to get this peice done for our final finish on friday. So I had to wait till 4th block anyway to shoot the scene so there was no way I was leaving school early.
Near the end of the day, I actually felt better and hung out with Ryan all day. Just watching TV, eating foods that wouldn't upset my stomach, and messing with the ping-pong table. But right now... I am starting to feel my stomach hurt. Its been going on and off all day long, so i'm head out now.
later......
- until the day I die, I'll spill my heart for you -
@ 12:25 AM
I DON'T UNDERSTAND:
nothing to say.. really...
weather was really bad... and stuff... had to work.. yep...
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@ 12:38 PM
PAINT and SATs?:
Today at school, I swear I hardly whent to any of my classes. I had fashion first period, and then for second, thrid, and forth I stayed and painted our logo for the broadcasting class. Not to mention that I stayed after school for about an hour and thirty minutes. The paint didn't just end up on the wood either... it slipped.. hehe... anyway, After all of that- Ry and I whent to stake n' shake- It was excelent, but he was tired and seemed down. He whent off to work and I ended up going back to my house.
Later that night, Lindsey, and I whent and saw chasing liberty which I must say was really good. Besides the fact that my pants ripped... a lot.
Then we ended up coming back to my house, and Tiffany joined. We played ping-pong, watched some tv.. like a little bit of the ring, and will & grace and things like that- but I had to go get my brother at 11:30 from the movies. He got carded for being under-age for seeing the butterfly effect, which is pretty darn funny. The best part is, it was Gwen who carded him. Though in the end, he got in- which I guess is a good thing. I didn't really want to hear his complaining later on that night.
And so the rotten day whent on after that... not really much to say about anything else. I might get written up- so Chasity and Mr. Ice say, and I have the SAT in the morning. With those, and some other problems- my HAPPY day(s) just left agian. HELP ME!!!!...
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